Happy November everyone! I have always loved this time of year – the colors of the harvest, the traditions around the Holidays, and the feeling of gratitude throughout the month. It is truly such a deep and poignant time for me.
Until 2010 – when November also meant the month I lost my mom.
My mom is the reason for my love of fall, the holidays, a Thanksgiving feast. She was not a super family oriented person, really. Not into traditions. At least, not the way I am. But she was into Thanksgiving and Christmas. So, losing her days after Thanksgiving was especially hard.
And now, as I put up the Thanksgiving decorations, comb through the recipes that will make up this year’s feast, and sit in meditation, contemplating all that I am grateful for, now I also think of my mom.
Enough time has past that I am not deep in grief anymore. I know that she is with me – I see her in the sunrise, feel her warmth as my children laugh and smile, and hear her voice in my thoughts as I walk through my day. But I miss the feel of her hand in mine, the simplicity of our conversations, and the sound of her laughter. I miss them all deeply.
So November brings both a tear and a smile each year, and the promise of another Holiday season. I hope yours is filled with all of the joy and gratitude of the season!